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xinjinmeng) wrote2020-09-16 08:32 pm
xinjinmeng) wrote2020-09-16 08:32 pm
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I was an angry, willful child. I would scream and cry a lot.
Now it's like the last forty years never happened. Now I can finally cry and I don't want this. Too much time has gone by. I have lived a life that I never shared with anyone. I'm a crazy aunt, I'm the weird one of the family.
My legacy is pop-culture ephemera and my future is going into a dustbin. My present is alone. There's no one to hold.
I am strong and I will persevere. There's someone I've yet to be.
I am writing this here because I want to record this moment, this now. This is me and I am afraid. I will master this fear and I will be glorious.
Thank you for listening. I am happy there are still corners of this world that listen.
Now it's like the last forty years never happened. Now I can finally cry and I don't want this. Too much time has gone by. I have lived a life that I never shared with anyone. I'm a crazy aunt, I'm the weird one of the family.
My legacy is pop-culture ephemera and my future is going into a dustbin. My present is alone. There's no one to hold.
I am strong and I will persevere. There's someone I've yet to be.
I am writing this here because I want to record this moment, this now. This is me and I am afraid. I will master this fear and I will be glorious.
Thank you for listening. I am happy there are still corners of this world that listen.