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In casual trespass through Layleaux, I happened across W___. Neither of us could remember how long it had been since we last met -- two, three, five years? Gracious, it might have even been seven or more.  W___ hadn't changed much at all -- still poor taste in life-partners, and was currently in very dire straits in terms of finances. If their stories were to be believed, she should really hire a lawyer; I suspect there was hyperbole. 

I have to wonder at those who cultivate a fetish for pregnancy.  Psychologists perhaps could explain the primal nature of it, but I cannot help but think it can be irresponsible to sire children for selfish titillation.  What of the offspring? The last time I had encountered W___, she was quite gravid with a healthy brood, but the subject did not come up and I did not pry.  I did not want to darken the serendpitiousness.

For it was not long before I steered W___ to the sort of intercourse that she and I enjoyed a greater rapport.  I am pleased to report that W___ is still very capable of bringing me to levels of delight that few can achieve.  In my heart of hearts, I suppose I am the id-borne, ravening beast, the very manifest of unforgiving nature, the dragon red in tooth and claw.  Even the awkward moments were giddily amusing.

As an epicurean, I should eschew the quick pleasure that leads to lasting regret.  The guilt of enjoying certain perversions clings to me like a film.  I find myself wishing for more natural pleasures.  And yet, I keep returning to the well of inquity.  Perhaps it is my guilt that I should shrug from my shoulders? Or are my old habits the shackles of my freedom? I am of two minds.

I am also deprived of sleep.  After the tryst, I immediately stole away to sleep fitfully during my commute to Trondheim, for the Teatermuseet i Gjenopplivelse.  If my skill with the Norwegian language is as adequate as I believe it to be, I may have impressed a few directors.  Of course, if I am actually cast as Hedda Gabler, I do not know if I will be able to live with myself.