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[xinjinmeng]

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Has anyone else ever had an orgasm they have not enjoyed? Was it with a partner? Was it alone? When in la petit mort, is anyone anything other than alone?

I am the once and future chameleon. I cast a face that does not reflect my heart. Sometimes it is the face that I suspect others want to see, other times it is a face I want others to know.  In this regard, I am not that different from other people.  Perhaps by knowing this I may better know myself?  What is behind the mask?  I can only look to mirrors, not to myself.  Well, or I could become a priest and seek enlightenment.

I am too busy to be a priest.  Nurnberg work proceeds steadily.  We have selected the Stuyvesant stage company for our props and hands, as they submitted the best bid.  L___ is currently the director, I have stepped down to be only the assistant director. 

The pain in my jaw has been diagnosed as grinding of the teeth during sleep.  A brace has been cast and given to me.  I cannot look at it without recalling an apparatus D___ had shown me what was to be used for a different sort of therapy.  All sophontic creatures dream, and I believe that I do; I do not recall dreaming after I have awakened, and I am told this is also normal.  What do I dream about that has me in such a lather, and why do I not remember once the dawn arrives?  I choose not to worry. There is work to be done.

F___ continues his machinations; he is up to something, and I would rather not be involved.  I would rather he not be involved, but I think I will order the rain to fall upwards instead, as that request would more likely be heeded.

On the subject of masks, I wonder what is underneath the one that N_B_ wears, and of how appropriate it is for me to pry.

Tonight: nothing.  As the epicureans would say, the minutes of pleasure are not worth the hours of dissatisfaction.

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[postrodent.livejournal.com]

Has anyone else ever had an orgasm they have not enjoyed? Was it with a partner? Was it alone?

Yes yes and yes. Your body keeps executing its genetically programmed subroutine, but the touch is all wrong -- pinching, scraping or otherwise discomfiting an extremely sensitive area -- and it is just no fun. You can do this to yourself if you're not yet a wanking expert, and a partner can do it to you very readily if it's among your first dozen or so times in the sack with them.

When in la petit mort, is anyone anything other than alone?

I've had at least one or two that were all about connection. Those were the good ones where everything was working out. No idea what the "normal" ratio is.

[ff00ff.livejournal.com]

Has anyone else ever had an orgasm they have not enjoyed? Was it with a partner? Was it alone?

Yes, alone. I've never had one with a partner, it always seemed like a one person job to me anyway. I've had several types of bad orgasms, ones that are perfectly pleasurable but I regret while I'm having them because it's such a hassle to clean up, ones which aren’t spectacularly pleasurable and make me feel lonely afterward, ones which were just one too many and my sexual tissue is stinging or aching painfully all the while, and ones which are simply devoid of a pleasure or high, leaving me as a spectator as these involuntary muscles do their thing, which is actually mildly painful when you aren’t getting a neuro-chemical reward.